Dreaming Birth and Rebirth

Dreaming Birth and Rebirth

So, just been looking back through my blogs to find when I had the dream about being pregnant - I wrote it on the 27th, so therefore it must have been the night of the 26th.  The reason???  I've had dreams about being pregnant and giving birth again, but not just last night (2nd), but the night before too.

In the first one I had just given birth and had to look after this newborn...she was so beautiful and I had such love for her.  The dream seemed to consist of various points in her infancy, until about the toddling age...in all scenes we were together playing, loving, and laughing - there it ended.

In last night's dream I was still pregnant, but full term and ready to give birth.  I found myself in hospital during labour, seconds later I gave birth to a little girl.  My husband couldn't get there in time as it had been too, it had all happened so quick...but he was on his way and so was my mum.  Again, she was a beautiful little creature and I felt full of love for her.  I spoke to my husband over the phone and told him the good news, and also told him that I had called her 'Eleanor', just for now until we could decide, but he said he liked it and to keep it.. 

There we have it, each dream a little more vivid and cohesive than the last.  I'm aware of the symbolic meaning of a birth (as I blogged before), as the birth/beginning of something new...and I'm aware that dreams can give us answers/insight or reflect back on our current life...but I'm struggling to work out why this is becoming a reoccurring dream.  Have I not understood the message?  Is there something I haven't thought of yet?  Something I've missed?  Or is my higher self just making sure I've got the message loud and clear, by repeating it?  I don't know the answer to these questions yet, and I'm happy to hear others thoughts on this matter, until then it's an open case.

Oh yes, one last thing...when I pulled a card from the tarot this morning it was rebirth!!!!!!

Moon - Waxing Gibbous 63%

Yoga - Tadasana, Star, Vrikshasana, Gomukha Virasana, Marjaryasana/Bitilasana, Moondance, Anjaneyasana, Balasana, Halasana, Bhujangasana, Prayer Twist & Nadi Shodhana

Card Message - Rebirth
You hear the call and awaken to the new light of day.  You have entered the darkness and drunk of the cup of silence.  You have chosen life and emerge reborn.
The Power of the Call.  You may have heard the power of the call of your vocation, your mission in life, the spiritual path you are seeking, or simply the call of a new direction you need to take.  Rebirth into a life that is more fully your own.  You may have come to a crossroads in your life, and a decision is required that will take you in a new direction.

3rd January - St Genevieve/Customary Kalends of January
Customary Kalends of January dedicated to St Genevieve, patroness or genius loci of the city of Paris.

If January Kalends be summerly gay,
'Twill be wintry weather till the Kalends of May.

Gratitude - Dreams

Dreaming.....the pregnancy and the headress

Dreaming.....the pregnancy and the headscarf & slippers

Well I've gone and done what I said I wouldn't......eat and drink all the wrong things to excess.  So it's time to redress the balance again!!!

Strangely enough whilst I sleeping off the effects of "too much"....I had a dream of being pregnant, I know that this does not indicate a pregnancy in real terms, but the birth of something.  So, maybe a new start, new project, new way of life?

The dream changed and I was part of a group of people readying for an Indian wedding, beautiful women in gaudy coloured sari's were everywhere, banners, scarves, flags and garlands hung from every available space...the colours were so vibrant, the opulence was breathtaking, the smell of incense was intoxicating.  I remember trying to find a headscarf and some jewelled slippers to match my outfit......then the dream ended.  Not entirely sure what the symbolic meaning of this dream is, maybe it's to do with the fact that I'm loving learning the yogic philosophy, the yogic way of life, as I'm journeying through the practical aspects of yoga.  Maybe, just maybe this dream and the last are connected, which would infer that something new will come out of the yoga.......how exciting that would be.

Who knows, but now it's written, I will always have something that I can refer back too  X

Moon - Waxing Crescent 16%

Yoga - Surya Namaskara

Card Message - Prince of Swords
A radical change in lifestyle or your routine: new friends may appear, or a whole new life may open up for you.  Impending air travel

27th December - St John the Evangelist.
A traditional feast day in freemasonry.

Gratitude - Dreams

My fathers passing...and my first glimpse of life after death

       My fathers passing...and my first glimpse of life after death

As it's my dad's birthday today, I've been thinking about his passing and how it showed me a glimpse of life after death. 

Dad, me, Mum and my sister



My dad and I were pretty close, so it hurt me greatly when he died.....he was only 39 and I was only 7, it was 19/6/1979.  Talking to my mum recently she has said she had recognised the fact his life had come full circle....due to all the 9's in the date and to go back to 1 was returning back to singularity...which is spirit.

I still vividly remember coming back from my friend's house to find the police talking to mum, and giving her the bad news.  In the days following my mum, younger sister and I struggled with our loss.  However my mum had prior to this point been exploring the concepts of life after death and the power of healing, so she was able to offer some comfort in the material she was reading.  'Testimony of light' or 'Dissolving the Veil' by Helen Greeves....which I devoured as she read to me.

I really can't remember much about the days that followed...admittedly it was a long time ago.  What I do remember is 2 vivid dreams I had on consecutive nights...

In the first I met with my dad again, he welcomed me into his arms and showed me he was OK, and I did not need to worry, for all was well.  There was no storyline to this dream, but I saw that we were in a landscape that was so beautiful, so lush, everything was so brilliant in colour and a feeling of happiness and love prevailed....there were other people here and animals.  I felt that I had been totally and utterly transported beyond this earthbound plane of existance, I know that grief plays tricks, but this was beyond hope...it showed me something more.

My second dream I met with my dad again, this time we were in what appeared to be a library.  He motioned for me to follow and he took me to a bookcase.   He pulled a huge book from a shelf; of which the whole library was full of, and then laid it on a table, it was a huge old leather bound book, and the pages were old papyrus looking.  Dad flicked through until about halfway and opened it up.....

On the pages he showed me was a list, it came halfway down the first page, the rest of the book was empty.  It was a list of names and dates...dad pointed to his name...and I realised it was a list of all have died....it was a record room, a room of all that have passed over.  After this the dream dissolved.....but I have no doubt though that this was more than a dream, I feel there is no way that a 7 year can just realise this things...even through grief.  I was happy then as I'm now that I was allowed to see beyond death, and this allowed me to accept and move on....this hard lesson learnt is a powerful one and has stayed with me since.

So there it is...my first glimpse of life after death.  I have to say in all my years since I have seen many mediums, and only once did one manage to connect with my dad.  I had paid for a sitting and had nothing that I could understand (I'm fairly difficult with this kind of thing, I will not give anything away or take anything given that is too general),  and then just as I was leaving she came out with all the information about his death that no one else would know.  So now I'm happy in the fact that this is just one level of existence..

I don't propose to know it all, but this much makes sense to me and maybe to those who may read this...but it is what it is, and I hope that I'm not too far off the mark...for some day I will know again all those that I have lost   X

Moon - Waning Crescent 11%

Yoga - Tadasana, Uttchita Parvakonasana, Parvottanasana, Virabhadrasana Eka & Dvi, Natarajasana, a sequence of Marjaryasana, Adho Mukha Svanasana & Urdha Mukha Svanasana, Setu Bandhasana, Balasana, Baddhakonasana, Ardha Matsyendrasana & Pranayama.

Card Message - Two of Pentacles (Earth, senses and the senses, body)
A need to seek balance in your life requires trust and playfulness rather than concentration and caution.  Material wealth and practical matters.  Juggling two or more jobs, homes or demanding relationships.  Juggling a number of factors in your life maybe a joy for you, rather than a burden.


23rd December - Larentalia
The Roman festival of Larentalia was held on December 23, but was ordered to be observed twice a year by Augustus; by some supposed to be in honour of the Lares, a kind of domestic genii, or divinities, worshipped in houses, and esteemed the guardians and protectors of families, supposed to reside in chimney-corners. Others have attributed this feast in honour of Acca Larentia, the nurse of Romulus and Remus, and wife of Faustulus.      

Gratitude - That I am surrounded by wonderful people

cycles and recurrence

Lots of things in life seem to follow cycles, whether it be the wheel of the year, or the 'birth, death and rebirth' cycle, the monthly woman's cycle or even just simply something that keeps popping back into your life for acknowledgement and assimilation.

What occupies my mind this night is the latter.....I'm having some flickers of the past, but it's not the past.......I know I'm in the present.  It's a sense of de ja vu, flashbacks and current life life all rolled into one.  Weird I know!!!

There are couple of things that have happened lately, that have bought my attention to this.  One is my daily card message which I do, another is a certain order of events that have played out very much like they have done before, and another is my dreams. 

Lets go to the cards - the deck I use is the Druid Craft Tarot deck, since I've started this daily practise there are now very few days where the card does not actually match up with what is happening.  Cards that surface often for me are 'Swords' - air, mind, intellect and thinking - so I'm someone that thinks an awful lot.  'Five of Cups' is prevalent too, that has come up lots recently - keywords, Sense of Loss, Unnoticed Opportunity, and Inheritance.
With regards to the events, something has occurred recently which has mimicked events in the past.  A sacrifice has been made made in order to move forward in life, and it's never an easy decision to make.
My dreams also are showing a common theme recently - I'm always surrounded with the people that are  most important to me, and there is always a need for us to connect with the earth, and to protect and respect her.

I am also noticing....which I have to write, or else I'll forget...is that I'm seeing lots of movement outside of my field of vision, today.  Shapes or movement, but always at the corner of my vision.....even found that during a conversation, my husband started looking in the direction of where my head was turned, to see what I was looking at.  So I know from that instance its something to note it down.  X


Moon - Waning Gibbous 92%

Yoga - Trikonasana, Setu Bandhasana, Goasana, Tadasana, Kakasana, Bhujangasana and Balasana

Card Message - Ace of Cups
Love, Inspiration, Fruitful Dreaming and Blessing
The beginning or deepening of a relationship.  Creative inspiration.  Time to open yourself to the many warm and nurturing relationships with which you are blessed.  The gift of the Holy Grail - the blessing, inspiration and love of the Goddess.

On this Day - Egyptian Day

The Spinning Galactic Microphone - Dream

For some reason, my thoughts have been drawn back to a dream I had a while ago.....

I started a visual dream diary.....when I had a profound dream I would draw the images I remembered seeing and this one really stuck with me......

I don't remember my of the story that goes with it now, but I was part of a team of people that used a device to connect to other beings from all around space....beyond our own universe.
We had maps that had been compiled over many, many thousands of years that corresponded to all known space.  The device was made from a special magnetic metal and the top was shaped very much like a microphone.  It was covered in crystals, that would pick up vibrational signal and voices and conduct and amplify the sounds so they were audible to us. 
The way it worked was very much like a spinning top that spun all over the maps until it found a point where a message was coming through, and there it stayed, spinning until all the message had been conveyed to the audience - our group. 
The main point for this communiction was the wellbeing of all planets and space against those everywhere that would exploit all for their own greed and yearn for power - we were part of a subversive group.

On reflection this dream seems to have many links with our current time on this planet and the spinning galactic microphone seems very steampunk like.

Whatever the meaning.....I've now documented the dream and shared so now will not be forgotten.

Dreams are a fantastic way of reflecting back to us, what is going in our lives......if you can remember to, write them down before all is forgotten.  X



Moon - Full Moon (Total lunar eclipse)

Yoga - No yoga today, too tired after last night and I'm not feeling very balanced.

Card Message - Seven of Cups
Seduction, Illusion and The Grail Quest
Know the difference between the imagination and the physical. Difficulty choosing between ideas and possibilities. You may be faced with a number of propositions, but be cautious - they could evaporate. Exploration of potential may have turned into daydreaming. Greedily taking any opportunity to satisfy desires.

On this Day - Lux Mundi/Liberty
This french festival coincides with the Roman festival known as Lux Mundi - 'The Light of the World' and epiphet of the goddess Liberty, whose burning torch of hope shines out even in the darkest hour. There is a statue of her in the harbour of New York City.

Moon effects

Today has been a bit of a struggle to say the least and I knew it would be from the moment I awoke!
I feel very displaced.  All of the usual physical requirements of the day has been very hard indeed, I've no 'get up and go', its all got up and gone! All mental aspects have been challenged too, the only thing I have done well, is being dreamy!
The card I pulled this morning from the Druid Craft Tarot pack was The Moon, the keywords are: psychic awakening, dreams, deep revelation of feminine mysteries, withdrawel and facing fears.
Need I say more! I then happened to check the Moon calendar and realised that it is a Full Moon tomorrow! So now I'm totally convinced....I'm staring the facts in the face.

According to a great book called 'Moon Time'......
 http://www.amazon.co.uk/Moon-Time-Harmony-Nature-Cycles/dp/1844133001/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1320866516&sr=1-1

the best time to do all physical work and activites is during a Waning Moon. During a Waxing Moon (which we are currently in), it is a time regenerating, absorbing and the closer to the Full Moon the more the effect. So definitely a time to slow down and gather strength. The absortion aspect is interesting too, for our bodies will more readily absorb all nutrients from food, but also absorb the toxins too. It is a time where body weight and water retention increase, so you may be heavier or more bloated. Poisons are absorbed more quickly, but so too are healing ointments.
I wonder if the absorption applies to knowledge too?
Its a fantastic book, I would recommend it to all that are interested in the Moon and living in harmony with it.

Moon - Waxing Gibbous 91%

Yoga - Missed

Card Message -
Fear is a powerful teacher and ally.
If you can walk through the gates of fear you will arrive at the realm of the Goddess,
who will bless you with inner vision.