Nobody is perfect, let alone me. My problems and issues are no different to everyone else's either. It has just taken a lot of effort and courage to face up to things, and stop 'sticking my head in the sand'. I haven't finished either, for that, in truth, is a life's work. It was only last week that I finally faced a particularly self destructive side of myself.....one that has been with me for a long time, coaxing me ever further down the path of no return. I've known it was there, but refused to acknowledge, preferring to live in self denial. It's been so heavy carrying that load too!! I never even realised, until I hit breaking point, how damaging it was to me.
So, where am I now? I'm HAPPY!!! Happy that I got through it all, sure there will be more problems to deal with, BUT I'll deal with them when they turn up. I'm happy that I'm at this point, and happy that I didn't give up on myself......I kept trying!!
As an added bonus....they always say "every cloud has a silver lining", I have delved into painting & drawing....something I did a lot of when I was a child, and again in my teens. Maybe with every problem/issue faced and dealt with, more creativity is allowed to flow....who knows?? :)
